Lies we tell (ourselves). 2nd attempt

I'm not falling,

just seeing if it's still possible to fly.

I'm not searching,

just looking for a reason to try.

I'm not lost, j

Just all out to sea.

I'm m not dying,

It just feels like I should be.

I'm not broken,

but I do need repairs.

I don't believe in God,

Just something to answer my prayers.

I'm not begging, I was already brought to my knees.

I'm not crying Just hoping you hear my pleas.

I'm not drowning,

Just seeing how long i can hold my breath.

I'm not sleeping,

just trying to find a new way to rest,

So I can wake in a time.

When things have worked out for the best.